“Am I behind? Did I mess it all up?”
I am still asking myself those questions once in a while. “ I need to see you in a wedding dress. ” “ It’s time to have children already, before it’s too late ”. I heard these phrases from grandmas and aunties very often lately. But why do I get flashbacks of those teen pregnancy shows, even if for a second, whenever one aunt I barely know gives me “the talk”? I am 28 years old. I am at the age where I should bury myself in debt to buy a 2 bedroom apartment, the age of being stressed with wedding planning, the age of settling down. And don’t get me wrong, I want to settle down. I want a warm beautiful home, filled with laughter and love. I want 3 kids, and a dog. I want a beautiful and healthy marriage. I want to find my direction, my dream, and not to feel drained about another day of 9 to 5. But, I am so far away from all of this. I didn’t find my purpose yet, my savings are laughable, my relationship is loving and happy, but still new. Hell, I don’t even know how to cook...